i do not love you..

i continue to use you.
you are my escape from the world.
i am useless when im with you.
i am not good to anyone whien im with you.
we are useless.
we are pathetic.
we are nothing.


i do not love you.
i love the idea of you.
we are useless.
we are pathetic.
we are nothing.
i do not love you.

high times 2

im at the point where i think that love exists but isn't for forever.. it used to but now the population is so large that we have the right to love more than one person.. as a mortal human being we love god  and love our children, love our spouse, hell marry a few of them, and then love everyone else.. but thats just me. or maybe thats what we're evolving to.. but we're losing religion slowly.

we walk individually.. as a country we do not stand united.

Bunch of nonsense that makes sense to me

As a soar across this flat ground,
I am learning more at a slower pace.
I'm stronger and weaker
I'm sharper yet stupid.
I'm speechless with everything new.
A babe for the thousandth time yet.


Time is still an impossible thought.
I'll never be able to feel as someone else feels.
Truth will never be known unless we are all one seeing, feeling, being.

new guy

Fate pulls at me.
No one can be trusted
Can I be trusted?
I only want what I can't have.
I am just as guilty as they.
I enjoy the CHALLENGE
Never satisfied
Never perfection achieved.
I believe that things should go exactly
the way I want them to.

He makes me hold my breath when he walks in the door.
Blue eyes
the eyes of a man.
Voice
the voice of my heart slowing
the sound of his lips moving
I sadden every day he leaves without saying a word.

If he loved me.. i'd let him down.
I'd lie to him and hide things.
He'd reach out and I'd run away.
Should i forget now?
I can't fight how he makes me feel
I'm growing with so many questions.